Suffocating on the inside 

Have you ever felt like you are suffocating but cannot put a finger on why? 

I often talk to my friends and they tell me the reason for what ever is happening in their lives. I am often left wondering, what is it that I feel in my gut that suffocates me? Then I reflect on my life and cannot find a single soul to blame but me. 

Sometimes you yourself are the reason for the way you feel. I know most of you would tell me you are ALWAYS the reason for how you feel. But why? Why would I do this? Why would I reach a point where I feel trapped in my own choices? 

Because of fear, because of feeling left out, because of the society and that gaze – made me do it. It is not blaming when you figure out the truth. It is simply stating the fact. 

So, you ask what next? 

Well, nothing. I am unfortunately a committed person. So I will commit to the choices I have made and live with it. 

But, what I will I do about it? 

I will write about it. I will share my views about it. I would want to know if there is anyone out there who’s in the same boat, I wish to tell you you’re not alone. And it’s okay. But slowly find a way to be smarter. Find a way to deal with it. Find a way to voice your opinions. Because my dear, sharing will make you feel better. 

PS: a post after ages, but you see I cannot write until I can. 

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